Blah

Lately I have been feeling a bit blah. Blah and stuck. My life is great. I have great friends and I have a great future ahead of me. However, I am in this place of uncertainty that I feel might drive me crazy pretty soon. I am waiting to hear back from the graduate schools I applied to in January. My friends who have applied to other programs have already started to hear from theirs so I have been receiving a swarm of emails every day about their acceptances. I am beyond ecstatic for them, but it is difficult to know that my future hangs in the balance. Where I go to graduate and for what have serious future implications. A friend of mine from college told me that when she was trying to decide about business school she realized that every decision you make that these times in your life change your entire trajectory. That is nerve wrecking.

However, this is not the only uncertainty I have right now. I am waiting to hear back from a variety of people for my job which just leaves me here waiting and twiddling my thumbs until I am able to hear back from them. I have discovered some new blogs in this process thelondoner.com (Thanks Alexis!) and girlwithcurves. Needless to say my life feels sad in retrospect. Sad is actually the wrong word. Uneventful is better.

I am hoping that this trip to L.A. this weekend will give me the boost I need to realize how wonderful my life is despite the current situation. Yes, waiting to know what the future holds is horrible and can bring about some levels of anxiety, but there is something comforting about not knowing. There is something awesome about an unknown future. It makes me feel like I am not stuck and that I am constantly changing and developing. Maybe instead of sitting here and wondering about these topics I should make the changes and plans in my life that I claim I never have time to make. In the next month my life will change forever. I should be relishing in the calmness so then I can celebrate change.

Here is to celebrating the future!

*ignore the chipped nail polish